A Brief Update
|July 25, 2012||Posted by Katy under Inner Musings|
Over the past few months my blogging has been pretty sporadic. From someone who used to blog every day, I am now lucky if I post four times a week. While I wish I could post every day like I used to, I am finding it increasingly more difficult.
A big reason for this is what is currently going on in my personal life. I try not to discuss my personal life on the blog very often, but I’ve had a few people e-mail me recently asking if I am doing ok. I’ll keep this post brief because nothing is more annoying than someone lamenting on and on about their issues and problems.
The short answer is, yes, I am doing ok, but I am very stressed out (but who isn’t?) and a little down.
Since graduating last December, I have been on this constant job hunt, not only looking for employment/internships in town, but also across the East Coast and Midwest. I made the decision, although a bit reluctantly at first, to hold off on graduate school until Summer/ Fall 2013, to gain some “real world experience” and take a brief mental break from a rigorous academic schedule.
Over the past almost eight months, I have sent out numerous resumes, writing samples, and completed questionnaires for different jobs. I have had more phone interviews than I can count and have even been invited for a few in-person interviews. I was very close to securing a position, only to fall a little short due to a “lack of experience.”
Its been very frustrating, and sometimes it is more than I can handle. I keep questioning “what is wrong with me” and sometimes regretting how I went through my undergraduate career. I find myself getting embarrassed and ashamed when someone asks me “so what are you doing now that you are done with undergrad?” and I have no answer.
However, what keeps me up at night is the fact that I have no idea where I am going to be in a month since I will be moving. My rent is too high and staying here in Jacksonville is not an option. Where I am moving to is unclear and I also, as of this moment, have little say as to where I will end up. I have one more job opportunity that I am holding out hope for (for a position that I am very excited about and interested in) but the decision is not in my hands. If I don’t get the position, then I have to figure out something in the next 30 days.
I’ve always been the person who has been a planner, but this is something that was clearly not planned for. I had hoped by now to have something to grasp onto. I’m ready to get on my feet, in a job/ internship that I love, and out of Jacksonville. I’m just hoping that someone will give me that opportunity, and if not, that I can figure out something else that will make me happy, a little less stressed, and working towards my future career goals.
Thank you to those who reached out to check up on me. If/ when I have more news, I will be sure to share it with you all. In the meantime, I am going to try to keep my head up and not get too down on myself. This is just a bump in the road and I have so much to be thankful for; I just need to remind myself of that.